so hard for me now?

 is confidence is so hard for me ?
where is before can confidence d me?
how i can find back ?
i really need to strengthen my confindence ..
aivy no more study in pin hwa..
before we are same group...(cooking)
now, she no more study in pin hwa..and i already don't know what should i do ..
i don't have any confidence to make all the things..
Sandwich?
I don't have any ideas...
and i feel scare to do everythings..
i need to how?
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